紅綠燈

突然覺得紅綠燈是一樣擁有神奇力量的東西。
從高樓大廈望下去，前一刻還是車水馬龍的路口—— 一輛輛車緊緊相連，快速移動，或呈直線或呈弧線。
下一刻，就消失了。 
作為替補的是一下子湧出來的一大撥人。 
有如撒在地上的紅豆。
一瞬間，遍地都是。

Who Am I

I have never had such a problem, which I cried over it again and again when I think of it.
That totally sucks!!!
And the more I cried, the more I found it's not helping except I feel a little better for I let go of my feeling instead of suppressing it.

The situation the I am struggling in, makes me realise that if one had never failed or losed before, when it comes, one's gonne be crash badly.
It's like there is nothing left in the world.

I don't know who I am.
I don't know where I came from.
I have no idea where I am heading to.

The passion that I got before, I found it nowhere.
Even in something that I like, something that I want to do.

It's miserable when you don't know yourself and you want to know about it badly.

What is life?
What am I for?

Dying from the inside

I think I am dying from the inside…

Don’t want to study, don’t want to work.
Just want to lay down and do nothing, think of nothing then be unconscious.
But part of me keeps saying that, I got to do something, I can’t live in a numbness way.
Then, I did do something, something meaningless.

After all, it’s nothing!

Dying…